You know its over. You knew it was over when he/she woke up next to you this morning. Its over. You knew it was over before you two talked about possibly "taking a break." Its over. You knew it was over when you asked for the ring back. Its over. You knew it was over when the little things that you use to think were soooo cute, now get on your last damn nerves. Its Over. You knew it was over when you scrolled through your phone and called her......the other her. IT IS OVER, but YOU will not LET GO, so YOU can LIVE. What are you holding on to? Is it the time? People hate to feel like time has been wasted, because we all know that the one thing we can not get back is time. With that beng said why continue to waste time? Yes you have been together since high school, yes you share a dwelling, but lets be honest.....it is not working. We only invest time in things that we think are worth it, but there comes a time when we have to realize, ok I gave it my all and this is just not working. And guess what? It is okay. My first car was a 1986 Dodge Lancer, all black with tinted windows, and it had all types of cool hidden compartments. That car was the shit. My friends and I would take Halsted all the way from the Southside to Riddles Comedy Club in Orland in that car. It was a long ride, but we got there! I Loved that car. It held so much sentimental value. It was my first major purchase that I made from my first real job. I paid $550.00 cold hard cash for it (that was a lot of money for me). Yeah! No more UPass for me. This car got me through a Chicago winter, so you know I was in love with this car. But then it started to act up on me. One week it was the radiator, then the alternator, then some damn hose, hell everything went wrong. Everybody would say just get a new car. My response would be, "hell naw do you know how much time and money. I have put into this car?" After a while I hated that damn car, everything about it. That dusty ass black paint, that cheap ass tint and those stupid compartments ( I couldn't find shit). But I continued to put more time and money into it, until one day it broke down on me and my mechanic Rich (white dude from Trumbolt Park who had a lazy eye) said, "Toya you need a new engine." "A new engine? How much?" "With parts and labor about $600-700." Now I'm thinking, that is more then I paid for the dumb car. So I told Rich, "let me think about it." The car sat on my cousin Angie's block because it wouldn't start. I got all type of parking tickets for that car. That car stressed me out. The time and money that I had put into that car was not worth the stress and inconvenience that the car was putting me through. So you know what? I called the junk yard, they sent a tow truck and a guy over who said, "I will give you $50.00 for the car," I looked at him confused (in my mind I'm thinking he bullshitting right?) and then said deal! It was OVER. My run with the Lancer was Over. It got me through that part of my life. Guess what? Right after that I got a 1992 Chevy Cavalier...upgraded on your ass! A friend was about to sell it to a stranger, but because my car was out she sold it to me for the low. I almost missed out. And that is my point. Don't hold on to a relationship and you two start to hate and resent one another. Leave on a good note. Leave it like the Lancer. Besides you don't want to miss out on your Cavalier. LOL!
MaToyaSwagher
It's Just Somethin' About HER
Welcome
6/22/2009
Welcome to MaToyaSwagher! If you are here you are either a friend, family, hater, coworker, curious, nosy, classmate, bored, a stranger, interested or an inspiration for my blog. Whatever your reason for being here, you are WELCOME. I plan to use this blog as a place to express who I am, my views on the world, my daily encounters, the things that people know about me, but most importantly the things that people may not know. I hope to grow with this blog and become an inspiration for others to express themselves. I am not sure how prolific or politically correct this blog will be, but I can guarantee that it will be me! I have been writing since the 1st grade, but was truly inspired to "launch" my blog after the Homegoing Celebration of Mrs. Nancy Howery who literally wrote her life, the highs and the lows. My other inspiration comes from teaching. Out of all of the stories, poems, and plays that I have read as an English teacher I believe that I am most inspired by Ralph Waldo Emerson's "Self Reliance." If you have time or care to research him feel free to do so. His words inspire the way that I live my life and is a direct influence on me being known for speaking my mind. The following is an excerpt from Emerson's "Self Reliance:"
The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them.
But why should you keep your head over your shoulder? Why drag about this corpse of your memory, lest you contradict somewhat you have stated in this or that public place? Suppose you should contradict yourself; what then?
Speak what you think now in hard words, and to-morrow speak what to-morrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict every thing you said to-day. — 'Ah, so you shall be sure to be misunderstood.' — Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood---
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Damn It...I'm GREAT!
Again Welcome to MaToyaSwagher
Welcome to MaToyaSwagher! If you are here you are either a friend, family, hater, coworker, curious, nosy, classmate, bored, a stranger, interested or an inspiration for my blog. Whatever your reason for being here, you are WELCOME. I plan to use this blog as a place to express who I am, my views on the world, my daily encounters, the things that people know about me, but most importantly the things that people may not know. I hope to grow with this blog and become an inspiration for others to express themselves. I am not sure how prolific or politically correct this blog will be, but I can guarantee that it will be me! I have been writing since the 1st grade, but was truly inspired to "launch" my blog after the Homegoing Celebration of Mrs. Nancy Howery who literally wrote her life, the highs and the lows. My other inspiration comes from teaching. Out of all of the stories, poems, and plays that I have read as an English teacher I believe that I am most inspired by Ralph Waldo Emerson's "Self Reliance." If you have time or care to research him feel free to do so. His words inspire the way that I live my life and is a direct influence on me being known for speaking my mind. The following is an excerpt from Emerson's "Self Reliance:"
The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them.
But why should you keep your head over your shoulder? Why drag about this corpse of your memory, lest you contradict somewhat you have stated in this or that public place? Suppose you should contradict yourself; what then?
Speak what you think now in hard words, and to-morrow speak what to-morrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict every thing you said to-day. — 'Ah, so you shall be sure to be misunderstood.' — Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood---
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Damn It...I'm GREAT!
Again Welcome to MaToyaSwagher
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